As Sean waiting for his holiday, he can't wait to spend his time with Sarah. In Sean mind, the first thing he wants to do is to give Sarah a warm hug, to make her smile and happy. For Sean, nothing is better than seeing Sarah, although Sarah teases him and make joke of him every time she sees Sean. Instead, Sean feels glad that he could make Sarah laugh all the time.
For the days they met, Sean wished the time could stop and the wonderful moment could stay forever with him and wished that Sarah could stay beside him forever. Sarah shared a lot of things with Sean, from hilarious dream experience to Sarah's background, and how tough she's gone through. Sean felt touched as she willing to share her life experience with him because, she doesn't simply share her story with others, and he felt happy as he had chance to understand more about Sarah's life.
Not only story telling between Sean and Sarah, during the holiday, Sean went to Sarah house to teach her how to cook grain meal that will make her even prettier and healthier. Although the method and experience is taught by Sean's mother, the meal is successfully cooked by themselves and it tastes goooooood too. For the first time Sean cooks for Sarah, he's having a thought to cook for Sarah the second time.
Precious moment always does't stay long, as Sean thought, he wished the moment can be extended, to stay beside Sarah all the time he has. Sarah, on the other hand, has questioned Sean about his feeling towards her. There's a time when Sarah asked Question A, Sean answered Question B, to simplify the situation, it's called "wrong channel", to further simplify, it's called "Sean's Stupidity", which make Sarah pissed off and eventually causes upset moment to be raised up. For Sean's Stupidity, he knows that he should not make Sarah feels upset in the 1st place, but yet, he's too stupid to make her thought wandering around for few days.
No one knows, the truth that Sean told Sarah is trust-able. The statement made by Sean, although it's true, it's not strong enough to make her believes. Maybe Sarah thinks too much, or maybe it's Sean fault to mislead the situation.
Sean knows, it's not easy to convince others to hold your hand and starts new journey, it needs time. For this reason, he came up with an idea to blog this whole things up so that he can express the word that deep inside him, as Sarah said he's not good in talking sweet. Sean could understand her dilemma of making choice, and tolerate to keep away from her when her phone is about in the air...because Sean has accept Sarah as a whole in his life. Sean doesn't want to see her upset just because of that, and so he keep it silently. How Sarah knows the taste of being kicked out? I guess only Sean know about it. What Sean was thinking that time, nobody knows.
Sean would like to say to Sarah: "I already accept you as a whole"
